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Victory!
3 min read
Job I had but was becoming less and less fond of? Out of it, with my library work study all lined up for school!
Boyfriend stressing about not having a job yet? 40 hours a week for him, boo ya!
Dog that was gonna just get sent of and put down even though she was sweet and needs training? Living safe and sound with my boyfriend
Days where all I wanna do is sleep? Haven't seen one for a week!
Feeling too busy to spend time with friends I love? Finally have time to chill with them.
It's been a good week, and on that note I would like to wish you all a happy Esther Day, a holiday honored by John Green every August 3rd. Today, a young nerdfighter friend of his named Esther Earl would have been 18 had she not succumbed to thyroid cancer... John met her as part of her Wish, and he told her that her birthday would be honored by a video on the topic of her choosing. Her topic? Love.
Esther Day is the Valentine's Day for all the other kinds of love. Not just romantic or for your parents, no. Not for the people you say it to every day. This is for the people you love but for some reason never say it. Siblings, friends, even co-workers. Today is the day to tell someone that you love them and that they brighten your life. Tell them flat out with those three simple words and maybe a few reasons why.
That said, even though this seems weird:
I love you! You've been a faithful and supportive watcher, you've given great advice, and you've showed me OH SO MANY epic fandoms to be a part of and love. Thanks for being made of awesome!!!
I'm gonna work hard to put my past behind me, to keep my fears in check, and to laugh.
People say I'm loud and annoying, that my laugh is immature and obnoxious.
I don't care. There was a point in my life I didn't smile, much less laugh. I'm never going back to it. Never. Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be. And, if you give a damn, take me.
Or leave me.
Boyfriend stressing about not having a job yet? 40 hours a week for him, boo ya!
Dog that was gonna just get sent of and put down even though she was sweet and needs training? Living safe and sound with my boyfriend
Days where all I wanna do is sleep? Haven't seen one for a week!
Feeling too busy to spend time with friends I love? Finally have time to chill with them.
It's been a good week, and on that note I would like to wish you all a happy Esther Day, a holiday honored by John Green every August 3rd. Today, a young nerdfighter friend of his named Esther Earl would have been 18 had she not succumbed to thyroid cancer... John met her as part of her Wish, and he told her that her birthday would be honored by a video on the topic of her choosing. Her topic? Love.
Esther Day is the Valentine's Day for all the other kinds of love. Not just romantic or for your parents, no. Not for the people you say it to every day. This is for the people you love but for some reason never say it. Siblings, friends, even co-workers. Today is the day to tell someone that you love them and that they brighten your life. Tell them flat out with those three simple words and maybe a few reasons why.
That said, even though this seems weird:
I love you! You've been a faithful and supportive watcher, you've given great advice, and you've showed me OH SO MANY epic fandoms to be a part of and love. Thanks for being made of awesome!!!I'm gonna work hard to put my past behind me, to keep my fears in check, and to laugh.
People say I'm loud and annoying, that my laugh is immature and obnoxious.
I don't care. There was a point in my life I didn't smile, much less laugh. I'm never going back to it. Never. Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be. And, if you give a damn, take me.
Or leave me.
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What Am I?
3 min read
A lot has changed in the past year for me. Some for better, some... not so much.
And because of things people have said, there are days when my head likes to make me wonder who I am.
Am I immature? Do I make those around me come off as the immature freak? Am I really so childish? I mean.... Multiple people have told me this. They have ended friendships because of this (via the internet *snort*)... And I wonder if it's true....
However, because of this, I have become closer to many people. I know who I can rely on now.
Or can I? See, this is where it really gets tricky. When friend A left, I reached out to my other friends in ways I never had. Relied on them, confided in them, vented to them.
And because of this I lost another friend... we'll just say friend B.
Apparently, because I have a pretty good family life (which I do, but they've moved pretty far away and I'm coping with that in odd ways. I miss them more than I realize) and a steady job (true, but some days that place is torture) and a good relationship (Yes, I do. There are no downsides to this. None. It's the best, steadiest, and most caring relationship I've ever been involved in. so, jealousy there?) I should be totally normal. My past issues shouldn't be a factor, I shouldn't ever stress, and God forbid I confide in her when it all gets crazy in my head. Cause I should be fine *shrug*
So when friend A left, I reached out to other friends. When I confided in other friends, friend B left...
Friend C must have spoken to friend A a lot, because a little while ago, she left. She gave me very similar reasons for doing so to those of friend A...
Okay, fine, whatever. I have my boyfriend, right? Other friends? Reliable friends! They've said they care, that they understand. I get support from all of them.
......................
Well....
Friend A promised me we'd be close. We were like sisters, after all, and you don't just.... leave, do you?
Yes, she did.
Friend B approached me and offered comfort, and I accepted. I made sure I relied on her... And that didn't end well...
So I'm very torn between feeling happy and loved and cared for all the time, because everything I'm seeing from these people tells me that, YES, I am, and being... oh, so, very scared that.... It will all go away.
because people change
and circumstances change....
and...........
There's a part of me that cannot escape their inevitable parting from me. That they will eventually tire of my problems and my 'immaturity' and... and who I *AM*.....
And leave like others have?
So... Trust issues?
yup, I think so.
And because of things people have said, there are days when my head likes to make me wonder who I am.
Am I immature? Do I make those around me come off as the immature freak? Am I really so childish? I mean.... Multiple people have told me this. They have ended friendships because of this (via the internet *snort*)... And I wonder if it's true....
However, because of this, I have become closer to many people. I know who I can rely on now.
Or can I? See, this is where it really gets tricky. When friend A left, I reached out to my other friends in ways I never had. Relied on them, confided in them, vented to them.
And because of this I lost another friend... we'll just say friend B.
Apparently, because I have a pretty good family life (which I do, but they've moved pretty far away and I'm coping with that in odd ways. I miss them more than I realize) and a steady job (true, but some days that place is torture) and a good relationship (Yes, I do. There are no downsides to this. None. It's the best, steadiest, and most caring relationship I've ever been involved in. so, jealousy there?) I should be totally normal. My past issues shouldn't be a factor, I shouldn't ever stress, and God forbid I confide in her when it all gets crazy in my head. Cause I should be fine *shrug*
So when friend A left, I reached out to other friends. When I confided in other friends, friend B left...
Friend C must have spoken to friend A a lot, because a little while ago, she left. She gave me very similar reasons for doing so to those of friend A...
Okay, fine, whatever. I have my boyfriend, right? Other friends? Reliable friends! They've said they care, that they understand. I get support from all of them.
......................
Well....
Friend A promised me we'd be close. We were like sisters, after all, and you don't just.... leave, do you?
Yes, she did.
Friend B approached me and offered comfort, and I accepted. I made sure I relied on her... And that didn't end well...
So I'm very torn between feeling happy and loved and cared for all the time, because everything I'm seeing from these people tells me that, YES, I am, and being... oh, so, very scared that.... It will all go away.
because people change
and circumstances change....
and...........
There's a part of me that cannot escape their inevitable parting from me. That they will eventually tire of my problems and my 'immaturity' and... and who I *AM*.....
And leave like others have?
So... Trust issues?
yup, I think so.
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Writers are forgetful,
but they remember everything.
They forget appointments and anniversaries,
but remember what you wore,
how you smelled,
on your first date…
They remember every story you've ever told them -
like ever,
but forget what you've just said.
They don't remember to water the plants
or take out the trash,
but they don't forget how
to make you laugh.
Writers are forgetful
because
they're busy
remembering
the important things.
(Didn't write this, found it on tumblr)
but they remember everything.
They forget appointments and anniversaries,
but remember what you wore,
how you smelled,
on your first date…
They remember every story you've ever told them -
like ever,
but forget what you've just said.
They don't remember to water the plants
or take out the trash,
but they don't forget how
to make you laugh.
Writers are forgetful
because
they're busy
remembering
the important things.
(Didn't write this, found it on tumblr)
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wtf?!?!
1 min read
So I got a tire slashed at some point yesterday....
And I'm just.... so confused! I mean... I don't know when or where it was or who did it. And it really bothers and, to be honest, upsets me that I don't know if this was a random act or if someone actually can't stand me that much.
And if it IS the latter, who?! I don't piss people off, I kinda make it a point NOT to.... thw worst I did was piss a buncha kids off at the pool cause I told them to quit dropping the F bomb in front of a bunch of little kids. And if they did it then.... well, they can't have! I was parked closest to the pool fence and the tire was facing the huge group of people at the pool...
But basically right now I just gotta hope that it was random. Cause otherwise I have no idea what else could happen to my other stuff or my own person.
And I'm gonna be worried something else will happen for days now....
And I'm just.... so confused! I mean... I don't know when or where it was or who did it. And it really bothers and, to be honest, upsets me that I don't know if this was a random act or if someone actually can't stand me that much.
And if it IS the latter, who?! I don't piss people off, I kinda make it a point NOT to.... thw worst I did was piss a buncha kids off at the pool cause I told them to quit dropping the F bomb in front of a bunch of little kids. And if they did it then.... well, they can't have! I was parked closest to the pool fence and the tire was facing the huge group of people at the pool...
But basically right now I just gotta hope that it was random. Cause otherwise I have no idea what else could happen to my other stuff or my own person.
And I'm gonna be worried something else will happen for days now....
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ariane-saint-amour
2 min read
^ I hate this user.
Why?
Because reasons. Several of them.
One: Her constantly making the front page with webcam-quality shots that show of her enormous fake boobs. She advertises that they are fake, she advertises that she is just showing them off for male deviants, and she makes no effort to get really good-quality or ART worthy photos up on her gallery. There are some TRULY good photos: th09.deviantart.net/fs71/300W/… (This one's revealing but DECENT. This is tasteful at least) fc02.deviantart.net/fs70/i/201… (And I actually truly truly LIKE that one!)
But this: fc05.deviantart.net/fs70/i/201…
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is NOT acceptable. Why? These pictures are not for an art-related purpose. They are more suited for a photoblog, like tumblr, and some better for even a facebook profile picture. There is no effort made for angle, lighting, or message. The purpose is to show her breasts.
Two: She insists that people who say "this is not art" are just jealous of her big surgery-enhanced tits. She refuses to take critiques or criticisms regarding her photography. When you point out to here that there is no effort made in them and how it is insanely unfair that she gets far more attention than several worthy users, be they traditional or photography. She makes the front page due to her fanboys. When one can argue that, yes, all front-pagers do, I mean this in the literal drooling, obsessed fanboys sense. They drool over her boobs....
Point is: that she is allowed to remain on this site rather than being banned and moving to tumblr upsets me. I don't approve of her work or fans or responses to critique.
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